Well...

I decided to take a test this afternoon after I dropped Joel off at preschool (which he goes to on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday), and I got a POSITIVE! I am pregnant! I am so excited I can barely contain it! I am still in shock a bit.. it was faint but it was definitely there! My due date will be June 8, 2009. Since I am notorious for being early it will most likely be a late May baby.

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Another Test. Another Negative. No period yet but I think I feel the beginnings of one. I am trying not to lose hope but its not looking good. If my period hasn't shown up by Wednesday I will test again. I am not overly eager to see another negative result.

I know I haven't talked about much else besides our trying to conceive journey lately, so I will fill you in on how everything else is going for once. 

Joel is LOVING preschool. He has so much fun and loves having somewhere that he gets to go that Colin doesn't. He says to Colin all the time "Your not big enough to go to preschool. Right Mommy?" He's pretty proud of himself. 

Colin is talking CONSTANTLY. He loves to point out everything by name. He is learning his colors as well, though no very accurately at this point. He usually gets blue and orange right though. He turns 2 in 22 days. Hard to believe.. 

Nathan has been working on building a fence in our backyard. We got the posts put in the ground on Thursday night and I think he might level them today so we can pour the concrete soon. Then when his parents get back from Tennessee we are going to build the rest. 

I guess thats about it. Not too sure what we are going to today, but it will be a good day none the less just because Nathan is home.

I Cheated!

So I cheated this morning and took a test.. it was a BFN (big fat negative). Its still really early though so I don't know what I was thinking. I have never been able to get an accurate result when I test early. I am going to try again on Sunday and if I get another BFN then I will try on Tuesday if my period has not showed up by then.

Wish me LUCK!

5 Days

In 5 more days I will get to take a pregnancy test to see if I am pregnant. I really feel pregnant. I have been nauseous, moody, dizzy to the point where I have to lay down, and quite tired. I am trying my best not to read into my "symptoms" because I don't want to get my hopes up like last month. The good sign is that I haven't seen my period yet. The last 2 cycles it has shown up at about 21-22 days. I am on day 23 and still no sign of her. Still 5 days to wait to know for sure though.

Nathan is working late again tonight. I feel like I never see him. He is either working late, working overtime on the weekend, usually a 12 hour shift, or out fishing or golfing. He has literally been gone the last 4 Saturdays doing something. It really gets to me after a while. I count on that to break up my routine of a week and I really look forward to that time. Hopefully he won't be gone too late tonight, but we will have to wait and see.

I am going over to my neighbor, Gemma's to watch The Biggest Loser tonight. I love that show. I think out of all the reality on tv it is such a positive and rewarding show. I really look forward to my Tuesday nights!

So far so good on my weekly chore schedule. I stuck to it all last week and I am into my second day with it and its going well. I love having my days structured. 

Guess I better run and make supper. I will post after I test on Sunday night.

Organizing Myself

Well last week I had a bit of a mental break down. I felt like a failure as a mother and wife. My house is always a disaster, I don't play with my kids, and at the end of the day I feel like I have accomplished nothing. On Thursday night I was driving to my dentist to have a tooth filled, and instead of having a pity party and making excuses for myself I really tried to figure out how I could actually make use of my time and feel like I actually did the things that I wanted to. So I decided to make myself a weekly schedule. I sat down tonight and filled out the time I would do my chores (during nap time), I set aside 2 full hours a day to play with the boys, and all the other little things that we have going on during the week. I am quite excited about it. 

I like schedules.. I thrive on knowing what I am doing and I really think that having it laid out, especially the time set aside to play with my kids before they are too big to want to play with me anymore, will really help me feel like I am making good use of my time as a stay at home mom.

Happy Birthday to Me!

23 years ago today I was born.. at 7:56 am. I weighed 7lbs 8oz.

My neighbor ladies came over for coffee this morning. One of them baked me brownies, one baked me a cake, and one brought me a gift! My neighbors are great and I am very blessed to live near 4 other woman who are going through motherhood at the same time as me. Bekky (the one who brought me brownies) had her baby girl 23 days early.. on September 3 and we got to meet her for the first time today. What a little sweetie. Her name is Abigail Lily and she weighed 5lbs 2oz.

Joel started preschool yesterday and loves it. What a big boy he is...

Nathan and the boys are taking me to Red Lobster for all you can eat shrimp tonight. I love Red Lobster so I am quite excited!

So Here are some pictures for your enjoyment.

Someone decided to help them-self to birthday cake.. When your children are TOO quiet there's usually a reason :)

No May Baby For Me

Well my unwanted monthly visitor showed up 4 days early on Monday. Guess it won't be a May baby for us afterall. I am really hoping that this month will be our chance. I really don't want to be pregnant in the summer and the more months it takes the closer we get to that happening. If I get pregnant this month I will be due on June 7, 2009.

In other news we are 4 days into our vacation. Nothing too exciting has happened yet but we are having a good time. Colin hurt his toe yesterday though and has been limping around. We thought he might have broke it but it appears to be a bit better today. Hopefully no one else will get hurt while we are here and that no more unpleasantness will occur..