Friday, August 29, 2008

Vacation in T minus 2 days

We leave for our condo on Sunday morning. I have a lot to do, but I am looking forward to it. I love spending time with my family. I am so very blessed to have such a close knit family. I love that my kids have their cousins close in age and in distance. I know not many people have that luxury and because of it my sisters and I have remained very close through the years. I am excited to get away from it all and just be able to hang out for a week!

I am 9 days past ovulation... only 5 more until I can take a test.. I have a very good feeling about this month. I am just really hoping that I am not reading into my every "symptom" the wrong way.

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Pictures and an Update.







Not too much is going on these days. I am still playing the waiting game. I have about 10 more days until I can test. That is if I don't give in early and test. My sister Tara went for her ultrasound and found out she is due March 21, 2009. That happens to be her oldest daughters 4th birthday. She is notorious for delivering on her due date too.

We leave on Sunday for Fairmont British Columbia. We have a BIG condo down there and all of my family goes for the week. It should hopefully take my mind off of wanting to test. I really feel like I am pregnant. I am trying not to read into anything but I have been dizzy lately, very tired, and have had a lot of surplus cervical mucous.

I am really hoping this is our month! May would be a great month to have a baby.

Sunday, August 24, 2008

Whew!

I just wanted to write a quick note to say that everything is good! I didn't actually delete the pictures after all. I just somehow put them somewhere where the computer couldn't find them. Nathan's brother, Brandon was able to find them in about 5 seconds. He also got our iphone working too! What a huge relief!

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

OH MY GOD! WHAT DID I JUST DO!!!

I thought yesterday was a bad day.. It just got worse.. So very much worse. Two nights ago Nathan decided to update our iphone, not knowing that because it was a jailbreaked phone that that would screw the phone up and make it unusable. So for the past day and a half we have been working at trying to get things back to normal.. Well his brother is a bit of a computer wiz and has been helping Nathan work at fixing it over the phone. Well today I was going through some of the instructions on how to delete a certain program off our computer and some how in doing that I deleted EVERYTHING off our computer.. and I mean everything. All of our pictures, all of our documents.. every single thing! I don't know what to do.. I just want to sit down and cry! I don't even know how I can fix this. Nathan thinks his brother may be able to retrieve some of it but I don't know how.. I feel awful! I just deleted my entire life off my computer.. all of the pictures of my kids growing up. I just want to curl into a ball and die.. I feel hopeless.. I know it may sound silly but its all my fault and I don't even know how to fix it.

Monday, August 11, 2008

Babies Babies Everywhere

A month ago today my next door neighbor, Gemma, delivered a little baby girl 7 weeks early. Brooke was healthy but wasn't able to come home because of regular premie problems. Well today miss Brooke is coming home. I am so excited for them. It has been an emotional experience for them through this whole thing and poor Gemma has been anxiously awaiting this day for 4 almost 5 weeks now! I am so excited to get to meet baby Brooke for the first time. I am sure it will not help my longing for a new baby though. Oh well, I can always go next door for a snuggle whenever it becomes too overwhelming.

My sister, Tara, goes for her dating ultrasound tomorrow. The baby will be due sometime between February and March. I am hoping for the latter because then it just means our babies will be closer in age. It will be kind of neat to have the "last" baby. Joel was the first of all the babies on my side of the family, then Tara had Aysha 8 months later, and Randi had her twin girls, Teigan and Avery 2 months after that. Colin was the first of the next "set" with Randi's son, Drew, arriving 6 months later, and Tara's daughter, Adeline, arriving 2 months after that. So this time I get to have the littlest baby. That will be a kind of nice change since my kids always seemed HUGE by the time the next babies arrived.

I went and saw "Mamma Mia" last night with my mom, Randi, and Tara. It was awesome. We went and saw it live last year when it was here and it was incredible and the movie is pretty comparable. I liked the live version better but the movie is pretty comparable. I am going to be going to see it again with Nathan's mom and my sister in law, Kerri. It was that good.

Friday, August 8, 2008

Emotional Rollercoaster

I am kind of sad today. Its 4 days until my period... but it looks like she is coming early. I have never had implantation with either of my previous pregnancies so I don't think that is likely. Still a possibility but not very likely. I also took a test this morning and it came back negative. I don't know what I was expecting. I don't generally get a positive test before my period is due. I guess I just wanted to make myself depressed. So I am still waiting. If my period starts full blown then we will know for sure. I totally thought we DTD near the day of ovulation. I am still keeping my fingers crossed but I am pretty sure its not my month.

Joel leaves to go camping with Nathan's sister, Stacey, and her family this afternoon. It will be a really nice break. I am quite excited to have him go. He will have a ton of fun, and Nathan and I will get to sleep past 5:30.

***UPDATE***
She's here to stay. Thats right.. Aunt Flow is here for the duration of her weekly visit. Ugh. I was really hoping April was going to be my month.